As i expected last weekend does not even worth to mention so frustrated with everything that happen and yesterday is the worst day ever a lot of work and got a RM300 “saman” i think it a speed trap while i was working outstation to terrengganu, the ironic is it a speed trap summons and i only exceed 18km/h the speed limit :-/ the speed limit is 70km/h i was caught driving 88km/h i should have floor the gas padel even more if i know I’m going to get a fine :-/ was a waste of money …, I’m also end up hurting someone else it make me feel bad for what i have done, I’m really sorry i felt so guilty right now maybe i was born stupid and will be always stupid … as for now i feel like uhh dunno maybe a snip my previous entry can describe it So today summarizes :
- can’t think of anything else except my gf
- lazy mode?or maybe not in the mood
- Super flat broke.
And last but not least :
- Feeling miserable (VERY).
Here some from my previous entry:
HOW TO BE MORE MISERABLE (IF YOU ALREADY ARE)
Hang out in the past and dwell upon all the negative, awful things that have happened to you.
Get sick. Use your illness as an excuse for self pity. Don’t carry your own load. Cease thinking for yourself. Become totally dependent upon other people telling you what to do. Then blame them for controlling your life. Add the complaining game to your “martyr party.”
Whoever complains the loudest and longest wins. Get yourself fired!
Give up all activities that may give you a sense of purpose, recognition, belonging or fun.
Don’t take care of yourself. Let yourself go. Don’t wash your hair or shower too often.
Don’t get dressed in the morning. Hang out in front of the TV. Frown… a lot. If your face never moves, you won’t have to worry about wrinkles. You get wrinkles from smiling too much!
Hang out in the future. Just imagine all the horrible things that could happen… whew! Cut yourself off from all contact with people. Who needs them anyway?
maybe it can make me feel better if i try to do it .. (I never thought i will get to use it again!) but i think it a bit too much :p, maybe i just use point no.1